Solitude (solitudestarer) wrote,
Solitude
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The truth of the matter.

I love journaling, blogging, whatever you call it I love it. I tell myself that I love to write about my life and whatnot so I can always remember everything thats happened for good and bad. But I don't think thats the whole truth of the matter.

I think, no scratch that I KNOW that one of the reasons I still have this LJ account or Myspace blog is because I want to be noticed. I want the attention. I'm eagered to know what someone else thinks whether it be friend, foe, or complete stranger. Its addicting isn't it? That attention status...that part where you realize that someone out there is actually interested in your meaningless life. Oh how vain we humans really are huh? Well I'm not going to deny it anymore.

I'm going to bare it all. I know its nothing that hasn't been done before but, I think I'm going to start being a lot more honest about my thoughts even the small minor ones like a random thought that comes into play while I sleep or the BIG private matters like sex or who I want to kill in their sleep. When it comes to those entries I'll lj-cut or give a warning before hand since I know some people just don't want to know or read any of that stuff. Also when I'm mentioning certain people I'll try not to mention names in order to protect their privacy and whatnot. I'm not trying to talk shit, I'm just being honest with my feelings.

Of course I'll still have all the geeky stuff I usually mention as well. I was considering making another journal for my fandoms but I'm just too lazy and I want to see how far I can get with this. If it becomes a problem or is just not enough to warrent some interest then I'll make another journal.

I know that my friends or going to be reading this shit and I can only hope that you guys don't judge me too harshly. Be honest but don't label me as the bad guy. I'm flawed, imperfect, and fickle. Only human and I still haven't mastered the whole walk on water thing, and I'm too scared to try the bleed myself to death, die, and resurrect spell thing right now. Maybe when I'm 30...

Anyways, thanks for your time. You get a special thank you if you actually spent the time to read this through. *insert hugs and/or daps here*

-Earl
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